Anonymous asked: Hey, I gathered from your blog that you are religious? If I am correct could you give me so pointers on how you found god and if it helps?
I wouldn’t say I’m “religious,” but I am a Christian. I wouldn’t put myself under any specific denomination except that I am a follower of Christ.
How I “found” God… hmm.. that’s quite the question! I wouldn’t say I “found” God, but that He found and saved ME. He has always been there, so it’s not like I found Him. A lot happened in my life and I grew up in church, so I always knew about God. When I grew older, I thought that I was a true Christian, but I wasn’t really following what Christ wanted… I was sinning. Sinning isn’t like a list of things like “murder,” “lying,” “cheating,” or what have you. Sinning is not being perfect. It includes those things, but even just hating someone or thinking bad thoughts about someone is sinning. I was doing some things that were quite… interesting… that I won’t talk about on here. Anyway, I felt trapped, like a bad person, and I hated myself. One day, I realized that Jesus could free me from what I was doing. And only HE could do it. I wasn’t perfect, NO ONE is perfect, so no one could free me from what I was doing. Only Christ could. He is the only person who has ever lived and NEVER sinned. NEVER. AND on top of that, it finally hit me, that He died FOR ME. For EVERYONE. Because He loves us. John 3:16 - “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” I don’t have to follow the old law or expect to be perfect because of this. The only thing I am now called to do is love others and love God. Everything else follows suit. Anyway, in that one night, I was changed. I no longer took part in the things I used to do. And that wasn’t anything I did. It was all God.
Ever since then, life has been different for me. I no longer feel condemned for anything I have done. In fact, I feel free. I follow Christ not to fulfill some void in my life, to make things better, or for a “purpose.” I follow Christ because He saved me and He loves me.
I hope that all makes sense. And it’s the condensed version. ha!